
In my summer holidays between the ages of 19 to 23, I volunteered on a holiday club for kids run with local churches in Islington in London.
Growing up in more suburban areas, going into the ‘inner city’ was like venturing into another world.
I helped run a group for 11-14 year olds who lived on or around the Marquess estate (pictured). At that time the Marquess had a notorious reputation. A combination of poor architecture and social deprivation created a haven for violent crime. It had only been built in the 1970s but by the late-1990s the decision was made to pull most of it down.
Moving in

After I finished studying, the local Baptist church, the Marquess Christian Centre, asked me if I would move into a flat above the church-community centre they had just acquired on the estate.
It was not a particularly attractive offer. My older brother had been beaten up there a few years before and being honest, I never felt comfortable or safe on the estate. Also I was living with two great mates at the time who had graduated with me. Life was good.
But despite this, I felt a very clear sense I should take up the offer. So I left my mates and moved into the studio flat above the church. In all, I lived there for 2½ years until the estate’s demolition started in 1998. It was one of the most significant periods of my life.
Awakening
In my first week living there I phoned up the local Dominos to have a pizza delivered. They took my order but when I gave my address, they said ‘Sorry mate, we don’t deliver there’ and just hung up the phone.
This relatively unimportant incident had quite an impact on me. As a middle-class person, it was the first time I was denied something purely based on where I lived. It helped awaken me to the reality of other people’s experiences.
Memories
I have lots of vivid memories of my time living there.
The intimidating teenagers who sat on the wall right outside my flat drinking and urinating; the bangs of torched cars exploding in the underground parking underneath and the kids who ran over the top of parked police cars as the officers were dealing with incidents.
And being part of the fragile church fellowship who tried to reach out with hope into the chaos.
Structural disadvantage
The main thing I learnt during this period was the reality of structural disadvantage.
The estate had structural problems which were deeper than simply the behaviour of individuals, families or groups. People living there were caught in a web of disadvantage which compounded the challenges they faced. It was deeper than just material poverty: it undermined their relationships with each other and how they perceived themselves.
Structural inequality
The killing of George Floyd has had global significance. It was a single incident but one which exposes a structural or systematic reality which is deeply unjust.
This is why a phrase like ‘institutional racism’ has become important because it refers to behaviour which goes beyond just individual acts and describes discrimination which has become embedded in a culture.
In his book We Need To Talk About Race, Ben Lindsay says
‘Race and class are very much interwoven. It is impossible to separate the two in discussions about structural inequalities…Many of the white people I talk to are not actively racist. They do, however, often struggle to acknowledge the privileges that come with their whiteness or perhaps have never considered them.’
Privilege
People like me: white, male, straight, university-educated and middle class need to accept the inter-linking factors which have formed our privilege. Sure, many ‘people like me’ have worked hard and used their skills, but we have generally lived in contexts where even a modest amount of effort is well rewarded.
Life is simply not like that for many people.
And the systems and structures which serve privilege and maintain injustice need to change.
Listening
It has been eye-opening listening to Black colleagues this week sharing their experiences. I have heard stories of people going for jobs interviews and being greeted by ‘Oh I didn’t think you were Black’, or of sons who no longer drive because of how often they are stopped by the Police. It is very similar to stories told by many of the young Black men in my youth group.
There are few things more cringy and pointless than middle-class guilt. I cannot do anything to change my background or who I am. But I can choose who I listen to, who I spend time with, who I develop relationships with, who I care about and who I speak up for.
Wow Jon
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I was thinking of you while writing it!
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In the early 1970s when we were first married we attended Salters Hall Baptist Church, in Baxter Road. While we were there we advocated for them to sell the huge building (members, 19: size of building: seated 1,000) to buy a property locally with accommodation for a youth minister and pastor upstairs and space for youth activities downstairs. We ran a youth group in the basement of Salters Hall while we were there. My idea was pooh-poohed on the grounds that I was an Anglican and didn’t understand how Baptists did things …. we went to Nigeria as mission partners and heard the church had burnt down (probably arson). To our amazement they decided to buy the property on the Marquess Estate, almost exactly along the lines of our suggestion some years earlier. So you were there. What a small world.
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Wow – that’s amazing! I always knew that the original name of the MCC was Salter’s Hall so its good to know you were involved. I was another ‘Anglican’ who they allowed in. I had lived with Nigel Williams (see above comments) when I had stayed to do the Scripture Union holiday club so we had a connection and he kindly offered me the studio flat which was next door to the larger flat where Nick Graves (the youth worker) and his wife Louise lived. The additionally coincidental thing was that I worked for Centrepoint from 1997 and I was manager of a new hostel (a Foyer for young people) which was called Salters’ Foyer because the Salter’s livery company sponsored it.
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Excellent article as usual. Thanks.
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This is a helpful musing and sharing of experience. Thank you.
I have been pondering very similar themes this week of how race and class are so interwoven. I absolutely see that White Privilege for people ‘like me’ is real (and even people not like me) but its very difficult to have that conversation alongside those whom definitely in no way feel privileged. Listening has been key for me this week.
I Also have been wondering why or what it is that causes people to galvanise in solidarity for BLM, for which I am deeply moved and thankful for, but don’t get so rilled for for those under privileged in other ways, such as opportunity and expectation… I guess you could say class (but that feels less correct these days).
If I am not careful I find myself being fascinated and inactive, but I think active listening might be ok too. Thanks Jon
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Hi Bee, yes I do think we have to be careful about the term ‘white privilege’ and I tend to avoid using it. I am comfortable adding to ‘white’ all the different ways I am privileged as I have above but I am aware of loads of people who are white who enjoy very few privileges. I think this often is a class and equality issue too and if we don’t address those issues we can further alienate poorer white people. Listening is critical and doing all we can to avert the nightmare where alienation and conflict grow in our communities along racial lines.
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It’s interesting to hear Reni Eddo-Lodge acknowledge white disadvantage in the (2017?) video doing the rounds just now. I tend to think we need to hear “white privilege”, and be quick to acknowledge how unevenly that may be experienced.
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Thanks for this thought provoking post. Do you have any thoughts on the spiritual dynamics at work when it comes to systemic or institutional racism, structural disadvantage etc. I believe they have a powerful spiritual dynamic at work too, which needs to be tackled in tandem
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